A New Year, worthwhile!

Its almost time that a new year is about to dawn and when we look back, what have we achieved till now? Is it the mere satisfaction that we are moving ahead in time, technology and pace of life? Or is it something that we have left behind and never noticed? We look back and all we see are the regrets we left behind, all the successes we carried along, all the new friends we made and all the old ones left behind, all the enemies we befriended and all new ones we incurred. But at the end of the day what is the one thing that makes it all worth while?

Its a question with a million answers and all of them are correct. For each one of us the answer is different and how can it be wrong. For me, what makes it worthwhile is that so far I might have made mistakes and I might have done wrong but today when I think about them they all seem puny cause the time has gone and the feeling has faded away. Sometimes I wish the old times to come back and sometimes I don't, thinking about the pain and sorrow I had to endure. Life is too vast, for some of us to dwell upon a single perspective. So I believe in the concept of change and new.

So this New Year, what makes it all worthwhile for me is the New Year itself with all the uncertainties that it hides with in itself, all the happiness and all the sadness that is about to come and all the new people about to appear in my life. It all makes it worthwhile.

Why???

Why do I feel like this?

is it because you wasted all the love I ever gave you?

or is it because you never responded the way I did?

Why have you put conditions to love me?

Why do you see all the faults in me?

Why is it so that you need a reason to say something awful to me?

Why oh why, did you not value the love I gave you?

Why did you not see that I gave up the world for you?

Why did you not tell me when I hurt you?

Why did you not feel the same way I felt for you?

I guess I asked for too much.

I guess I never knew that love was such.

I think I learnt after I shattered my heart.

Not once, not twice but every time I began to start. 

Why have you been so heartless?

Why have you been so loveless?

Why have you been so mean?

To break my heart, why were you so keen?

I know now never to trust, 

that the mean things that the world has to thrust, 

All the bad things you helped me through, 

and all the hurt you pushed me to. 

Oh, I could never stop loving you, 

Cause even when I hate you, I think I love you.