Life had moved on a long time ago. Today I stand the test of
time wondering whether I will be able to make it through. I was the one who
tread every step on the rose bed. I was the one who could turn sour milk into
cheese and make it delicious again. He wronged me and went away and took my
charms with him. I never realized when I had gifted him. It was love then.
Today I have my life with me and the most amazing part of it
is that even without my charm we still try to make it like a leaf bed, even if
not a rose bed. We try to make the best out of whatever littlest thing that we
possess. We enjoy even if it rains just one drop, or if its blistering hot or
if its bone chilling cold outside. That’s life. But sometimes I wonder, I wish
I could gift my charms to my life rather than the love I once had. Not for me
but for the heart that he possesses and the value he bestows upon me.
The charms are working wonders for my love and I only want
the best. But what about my life which I now value more than love! But then the
clouds parted and God said, “don’t you see, he is your charm. You don’t need
one anymore”. And he was right, my life is my charm and the littlest thing that
we enjoy are the wonders of the charm, otherwise who could enjoy more than 12
hours of drive without air conditioning in blistering summers, well, we did. I
do miss my charm but I wouldn’t give this one up for anything in the world.
This epiphany came upon me while I was writing this piece
up. Yes, I did lose my charm and all my good luck. I am struggling more than
ever and I see my life suffer because of my failures. But he never once blinks
in dismay. He encourages me to move on and go ahead. If ever the phrase “behind
ever successful man there is a woman” were true, then there ought to be one
more. “Behind every successful woman there is either a loving husband/ father
or a conniving boyfriend.” Its true women are much stronger than men. I am stronger.
I am stronger for my life and all the hardships that I need to bear to make it
into a leaf bed, if not a rose bed.
I am truly thankful to God for blessing me with such a life
as this. A life with my love I had seen, it was difficult and unimaginable. But
a life with my life is exactly what was meant for me.
How has life played it out for me,
I never realised that it was destiny.
You were the one who looked me up,
And brought with you memories to fill my cup.
I wonder how my life would be without you,
I know now that no one could love me like you do.
I wish I could give you the world and more,
but alas, all I have is my heart that was already sore.
You took my heart and made it precious again,
Thank you dear, for mending my broken reign.
You are my life now, my love now,
You are my everything and forever now.
Thank you Neel!
