Heartbreak lessons

Have you ever wondered how love alters you and how you start looking at life with a whole new perspective? Well the same happened with me.
I was in a girl's convent all my life. Fourteen years of my life I spent with girls. The only guys in my life were my my father, my brother and some cousins. School was tough. People wish they could go back to their school days, but I am not one of them. Any ways, the only get away that I did have then were books. They had such variety of things to offer. And the most fascinating among them was LOVE.

I wondered how it would be like to be in love, to be wanted, to be loved. Around me I saw friends talking about guys and how its exciting. To be honest I joined in as well, without any first hand experience. I know many people might think that I was just trying to fit in and some might even think I am a loser, but it is what it is. Sometimes it bored the hell out of me when my friends used to talk about how a guys were trying to get them by throwing love notes at them, WOW!

I was average, in school, in looks, in just about everything. So no knight in shining armor was coming my way and so I didn't have many stories to tell. Some found it real boring and so I was stuck with a really small number of friends, to be more precise, one. But I loved it.

I got my heart broken first when I was 13, it was not love but rather infatuation. But still, I was disappointed. I got a new perspective to life, "I am good enough for no one."

Life moved on and I had a great time with my friend. We were together and had fun with all the silly things in life and never had time to think of love. But no one escape its clutches either.

Suddenly I was friends with a guy who was from a completely different world and told me about things I really didn't know about. Then came the biggest mistake that anyone can make in their life. A friendship turned into a relationship. It usually never works out and at the end of the day you end up ruining the friendship. Same inevitable thing happened with me. And another heartbreak. Thank God it ended before it took a serious turn. New perspective, "Long distance relationships, never last".

Then came the Real Love and it was all rosy and the world was different. It was unbelievable for me, that anyone could actually fall in love with a mediocre like me. But it was true, I was in love and someone loved me back and nothing was going wrong.

But something did go wrong and that led to a massive heartbreak. New moral, "Love sucks, never fall in love".

Some how I have realized that a broken heart always demoralizes you. It teaches us that there does not exist anything called "PERFECT". Everything has flaws, plans often fail to work out the way they are supposed to work. And at the end every heart break teaches you a new lesson, learn it and still you would have to face another one but one thing always remains the same, the pain.

No wonder life is a greater achievement than death.